Improved empathy in MDMA Session with Ronald

A week ago, I had my first session with MDMA analogue with Ronald. It took a little longer for the effects to kick in for me. After 45 min I began to feel a dark scepticism. Ronald helped me through this phase. Eventually, this inner darkness disappeared and I felt open and warm and experienced an unknown empathy for myself and other people.

Thanks to the links and texts Ronald had sent me before the session, I was already somewhat familiar with the IFS model of inner parts. I had already found some so-called protectors within myself before the session, but I didn't really know what had triggered them in my past and didn’t know which displaced exiles, according to IFS terminology, lived within me. Under the influence of the MDMA analogue, I got access to my emotional wounds and got an idea of these hidden exiles. I was also able to make initial contact with a kind of inner child that had been hiding.

During the session, I did not see any events that I had forgotten, rather I was able to feel the associated emotions more clearly again. And it was the same in relation to my relatives. I now understood what my living and deceased relatives had gone through in their past and that the traumas of my ancestors are still influencing me through many decades until today. That was interesting and surprising. I now have more compassion and understanding for myself and my relatives and can treat everyone with more forgiveness.

Since the session, I also have much better contact with people I meet in daily life. I am more present, empathetic, and spontaneous in conversation. I can see how those people who knew me for longer are enjoying my changed behavior. For me, that is a very welcome result of the session, and I hope it lasts.

I believe that I still have a lot of work to do with my inner parts. A start has been made, and I am grateful for that. Above all, I am grateful to Ronald, who knew exactly what to do at every stage. I felt very safe with him because I sensed that he is an accomplished companion.

Thank you very much for this experience.